The Good, The Bad, And The Puppy!

Apologies for the recent lack of posts, it's been a busy/tiring few weeks both D and non-D wise!

We recently got a puppy called Winnie who's now about 10 weeks old. Very tiny and seriously cute but is still getting used to being away from her family so still whimpering and crying when she's left on her own. A couple of broken nights along with the early shift has meant me feeling like a zombie most of the week!

But how can you stay mad at this little face?

Had a couple of nasty hypo's this week (both below 2.5mmol) which got me down quite badly, to the point where I almost burst into tears after 10 minutes of being at work. When I'm that low I seem to lose control and turn into a dustbin, eating everything and anything I can get my hands on until I feel less shaky (which isn't a good idea at all). The second night I did this it rebounded and in the morning was over 20mmol.

FML.

Since getting back off holiday I've tried so hard to get back on track and its totally cocked up again. I'm fighting to get my 30 day meter average under 10mmol when before it was lingering around the high 7/8 mark!

My levels during the day are between 4 and 10 which I'm really pleased with but it doesn't seem to be making any difference to my meter average :(

Am feeling a bit better today after being very pissy for most of the week, it's my birthday next week (the big 22) and then I have the Chap Olympics next month along with my second forum meet! Plus I'm getting D friendly cupcakes!!!

You want another picture of Winnie?

Oh go on then... :D

Disney's Newest Ride.... The Glucoaster!

I've been a naughty blogger recently *slaps wrist* Not really wanting to post about my D experience abroad but knowing that it'll help in the long run... so put it off for a few days.

Apologies in advance for a more serious, negative post!

As some of you know, on my last holiday to Florida I was a few weeks away from being diagnosed with D so felt pretty awful for the majority of our trip. This time I was extremely nervous/anxious about travelling with D and how it would behave.

Before going, people said that I'd have to reduce my insulin because of heat absorption, exercise etc. So on my first proper day in the Sunshine State that's what I decided to do (trying to be one step ahead). D didn't like that at all, and despite a good walk around Universal Studios for over half a day my sugars sky rocketed. Admittedly I did have a cooked breakfast from a Ponderosa (which was soooooo good) but not an American portion!

This is how my body continued to deal with the increasing heat for the rest of my trip. I quickly upped my dose and tried to stick to some sort of routine with meal times (which isn't really what you want on holiday). But my parents (Super D-Rents) were great about it and really supportive. Stopping every now and then in the shade so I could test and correct and finding places that didn't just serve burgers and fries.

I'd love to say that I kicked D's arse into utter submission but I didn't. I folded and broke down more and more. I hated it more than ever, knowing this time what was wrong with me but not being able to fix it. Constantly testing and correcting meant my fingers were sore and my stomache was covered in tiny bruises. My patience wore thin and by the end of an evening I got snappy or emotional. At one point I asked my parents to hit me over the head with a shovel and have done with it. Funny now looking back but at the time I really meant it.

Almost a week later and today I've had all readings under 10mmol for the first time since I went away so I'm keeping my fingers crossed that I'm getting back on track..

This isn't to say my holiday was a complete wash-out!

The time in-between testing was great and it was great being back in Orlando and apart from worrying about me, my parents also had a great time :) I went on lots of rides that I haven't before (insane waiting times ruled out Harry Potter rides/shops which was a complete bummer) and even held a little alligator called Oscar!

My Frio bags worked a treat to and from the UK and during my entire holiday the only reason for being stopped was for having suncream in my handbag at Orlando airport! Felt like a non-D person not being stopped for having pens & needles in my manbag which was nice :)

I think it'll be a while before I go anywhere long haul again, but at least I can say I had a go and learnt from it..

Our gangsta style Cadillac hire car!

Kicking the D!



Cupcake with sprinkles!

How not to decorate your car?

Uhh Freak Out!

Hi folks

Hope you're all well and not freezing your butts off with all the snow :)

Up until today I've been doing well with my sugars, and have even gotten my 14 day average on my meter down from over 10 to 9.1 and now it's back up to 9.9. All because I went out for Sunday lunch :(

Decided to split my dose before going out as we would be eating a bit later than usual, plus it was a special birthday for my great aunt so they'd be cake/drink etc. Some people had starters so it took over half an hour before food was served so I did get low but then food arrived. Got home to a 10.6 which I was really surprised at. Really loved the food but it made us all very sleepy when we got home.

I had a nap. Not a wise choice.

Checked my sugars and hour and a half later. Care to take a guess?

31.8

I nearly died on the spot. I've never ever had a reading that high, even when I was first diagnosed. I'm so angry and mortified I don't want to tell my parents. Why didn't I test sooner? Why did I think 10.6 would last? Why have I screwed it all up when I was doing okay?
I've done my correction and had a good old cry about it, and am now 10.8. Feel sick everytime I think I let myself get to that, and it's now giving me headache.

Stupid, stupid, stupid.

Was looking forward to my HbA1c next month being lower than the previous one, but I guess not. Going to try as hard as I can to improve my levels in the next 3 weeks to reduce my 14 day average again and reduce my HbA1c.

Think I need to go find some more tissues, so I'll leave you with this... xx

Bad bad bad

Had a pretty rough 24 hours and still not feeling 100% now...

Blood sugar reading before bed was 19 so took my correction dose and waited over and hour to do my lantus, got down to 11.8 so I was much happier. Next thing I know is that I'm awake at nearly 1am having a hypo. One of my worst ones yet.

Woke up again at half 4 and decided to check again and I was at 20! Looked around my room to find bits of Caramel nibbles paper on the floor... luckily I hadn't eaten the whole lot but not really remembering that I'd eaten them wasn't a great feeling. Gave myself another dose of novorapid and woke again at 7am to another 11.8.

Felt awful and ashamed that I'd almost binged completely on chocolate like a crazy person. The choccies were for friends on monday evening! Still have a bad headache now but luckily my boss didn't mind me going home at lunch and making the 3 hours up tomorrow.

Feels like someone's bashed me on the head :'(

Think I need a sleep then a really sad film.

xx