I'm still fairly new to D and it's constant ups and down (both mentally and physically on my meter!) so I don't think I have fully 'accepted' it, it's just there being a pain in the arse. Some days are better than others and hopefully I'll grow to accept it as the years go by – I'm only really beginning my D-journey! At the moment thinking of another 50 or years with D is pretty daunting but I hope I'm stubborn enough to do it :)
As in my About Me section, I was only diagnosed in 2009 (a couple of months after my 20th birthday) so I started managing my D pretty much the the day/day after I was diagnosed. I was given a squidgy toy penguin to inject with a pen pre-filled with water so I could practise, did it once and then moved on to me! No-one else has ever had to give me an injection or call 999 which I'm quite relieved about!
Me and the D take turns in owning each other at the moment, I'm trying more now to shift that from 50/50 to 70/30. High/low numbers and hypo hangovers will always let me know that the D is there ready to own me at any opportunity. Numbers in range lets the D know that I'm still doing my thing and that it's not going to spoil my day. I've never had full-on burnout lasting more than a day or two, I think starting my blog and being a member of the forum/DOC has helped me a lot over the past few months.
The thought of my family/close friends having to deal with me not being here is a massive inspiration, I want to be here till I'm in my 80s/90s and have had a good innings. Not one of the statistics that scare people! People from the forum and DOC also inspire me because a lot of them have been through so much, both D and non-D related, but are still here and have a great sense of humour about it all :)
At first I hid a lot from my family/friends about how much it scared me and if I was hypo/hyper and also because you can tell if a person is genuinely interested or not. I'm more open about it now because I need to know that should anything happen to me, that they know what to look for and what to do. I think that having Diabetes has helped me to find 'true' loved ones that care/support me and don't just ignore it. It's a part of my life which I am going to talk about xP I am however still a little guarded about my fears for the future, because I don't want to scare them with it..
At the moment I'm looking forward to all the future milestones that are coming my way, meeting someone, settling down and all that slush xP
As long as I'm kicking D arse along the way, bring it on!
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3 comments:
Great post Emma. You appear to be tackling D head on! And on the days you feel uneasy, the DOC is always here. Looking forward to reading about more of your milestones in the years to come!
Terrific post!! I know you'll be counting off those milestones year by year, because you are already off to a great start!
Emma-
"some days are better than others" you hit the nail on the wall with that phrase but the good thing is that we all have each other. I know you'll find a special person to grow old with:)
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